Rafi Daugherty came out as queer in 2004, and trans in 2007. While in school, Rafi worked with individuals with development disabilities and homeless New York City youth. He is happy to be part of Keshet’s Denver office and to help strengthen LGBTQ Jewish life in Colorado. Rafi shares his story of growing up as an Orthodox Jewish girl as part of Keshet’s observance of Transgender Day of Remembrance.
Keshet works for the full inclusion of lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender Jews in Jewish life. This post originally appeared on Keshet’s blog on MyJewishLearning. When I was growing up, as a little girl in the Orthodox Jewish community, I would stare longingly over the mechitza feeling betrayed by G-d for giving me a body that didn’t feel congruent with my soul. I never imagined that one day I would feel right in my body, accepted in my community and able to walk freely in the world as a Jewish man.
This year, Jewish organizations across the U.S. are joining together to keep broadening and deepening that acceptance by observing Transgender Day of Remembrance.
Observed annually on November 20th, Transgender Day of Remembrance was established as a day set aside for remembering the lives of those gender non-conforming individuals who were viciously murdered for being themselves. It is sometimes hard for us to make the leap between thinking about people being murdered and what that has to do with our community or with us. We think, “No one I know would ever murder a transgender person!” While that may be true, I challenge us all to ask ourselves:
What else can we take away from this day?
Most transgender people spend years hiding and fearing “coming out” because they do not have a community where they know they will be accepted. Many transgender people, like myself, have used drugs and alcohol to numb the pain of being “different,” and even contemplate suicide to escape from making the heart-wrenching choice between family and being true to themselves. Sometimes I wonder how my life would have been different if I could have known as a child that I could be myself and also be a part of my community.
I hope this day inspires us to ask ourselves:
- How can we make our community the type of community where a transgender child or adult will feel that they can safely express who they are and not only will we not shun them, we will love and embrace them and encourage them down their chosen path?
- How can we use this day to bring an end to the silence around gender expression that might allow bullying in our Hebrew schools?
- How might we bring awareness to the issue of bathroom safety for gender non-conforming individuals in our institutions?
- How can we widen the arms of our communities’ embrace so that it can enfold the most stigmatized and ostracized individuals and bring them closer to G-d, to Judaism and to themselves?
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